It's time..

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Sometimes it is hard to see the lines we've drawn until we've crossed them. That's when we rely on the ones we love to pull us back and give us something to hold on to. Then there are the clearly marked lines. The ones that if you dare cross, you may never find your way back.



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What did you learn about yourself in 2011?

Living on high level stress the past few weeks, I let myself be carried away by the thought of my winter vacation, which is fairly close. I want to do so many things: travel, go out, have Christmas dinners, party for New Year’s, shop, go snowboarding, etc. But all I really wish for is to do nothing, maybe just sit in front of the laptop or sleep, lol. I need a break, a psychical one, from all the shit I went through the last few months. Oh, nothing bad happened, it’s just the stress and constant worrying about due dates…

As we are getting closer to the ending of another year, I would like to know if you’ve learnt anything new about yourself in 2011. I feel like I’ve learnt a lot, with the help of other people as well as being in many different situations. Here’s a short list of some of the things I've learnt:

1. I am much better at handling crises than I previously thought I was.

If you manage to keep your calm and laugh at the situation, a solution will pop-up in your mind and it is usually the right one.

2. That I don’t have to know all the answers.

In any given situation, at your job or just life, you don’t have to know all the answers, and you can’t know them all for that matter, it’s just not possible. You just have to know how to find them.

3. That I don’t fear strangers.

I could say that I re-learnt this about myself. After all, some of my favorite people today were once strangers.

4. That I take more than I can handle.

I shouldn’t overwhelm myself with anything, just because I want to hurry up to finish something in a certain time. And I shouldn’t make myself available to people when they won’t do the same for me.

5. I like pretending.

I like pretending that I am someone else. Not in a social environment though, but rather on camera or in front of an audience. It is almost like playing and being a child again. Love, love it!

Is there at least one thing you've learnt about yourself this year?

Dear John,

     It's Saturday and I don't love you anymore.
People change as time goes by, other people get in between, but I will love you til the day I die.
We use them to help us forget, we use them to be reminded how to fall, to shake the dust and try again, because we've learnt that after one follows another and that no matter how real it may seem, no pain is forever. Only time can tell if resentment will chase away the love.

Saw you that cold evening,I smiled back, wondering: what the fuck do we think we found here?

Update

It is 2:45 AM here and I am insomniac. I don't feel tired, yet knowing that I will have to wake up in less than five hours makes me cringe, lol. If I go to sleep now I'm afraid that I won't hear the alarm in the morning... and tomorrow, in fact today is very important to me. Anyways, since I find myself in this unfortunate situation, lol and with really nothing better to do o.O I thought that updating my blog would be a good idea.

Since I don't have anything prepared for you as I wasn't really inspired to write anything lately (I'm reffering to the story I am writing here on the blog), I will update you with a few drawings that I made lately...

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Trying to forget someone you love is like trying to remember someone you've never met.

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In times like these...

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You must be healed by now... on the outside at least... What a collection of scars you have. Don't forget who gave you the best of them... 

Our scars have the power to remind us that the past was real. 

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Don't ask me for love again. I give up!

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Failure is not the falling down, but the staying down.

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In jur e pace nu-mi place

In suflet port un razboi!

Update

I have been up to many other things and to be honest, lately I have lost interest in posting on the blog. However, I will keep it up and will update from time to time with the usual stuff about anything that crosses my mind. And I will also make some changes in the near future...

How to get over a break-up.

Breakups are hard, there's no denying in that. However, people break-up for a reason. With that in mind, you need to get over someone the right way and also keep in mind that there is a light at the end of the tunnel. You just have to trust life on that.

There are quite a few aspects about a break-up as to why or how it happens and for some, closure is what it takes to move on or start the process of moving on. Admit your wrongs and forgive yourself, with the idea that you won't repeat them in the future. See and take into consideration the wrongs that have been done to you as well. It is very important that you do so, that way you'll learn the boundaries of your ideal relationship.

Once you break-up with someone or the other way around, there is no turning back, this is real life and not some movie where people get back together and live happily ever after.

The break-up rules:


1. Cut off all contacts with your ex. Believe me, you don't want to keep track of their life without you. This will prolonge and add up uselessly to the process of moving on. Delete them from Facebook, MSN, your phone, etc. Also move all the pictures into a folder that won't come up in your face each time you turn on your computer. Or delete them altogether.

2. I will call this one "The 60 days rule". Which means imposing yourself to not contact your ex in any way for 60 days. For no reason, not at all. You should've given their stuff and gotten your stuff back from them by now.

3. Get a new haircut. But, please don't go all crazy with it. Google trendy hairstyles or just go to a good salon and ask for something that will suit you.

You can spice it up with some streaks, even a new color or just play with the tones of your current haircolor.

4. Allow yourself a little retail terapy and go shopping. Go for sexy but classy.

5. For 30 days, make it a rule to accept every invitation you get from everyone you know even if you don't feel like it. You need to go out, meet new people, have fun and live your life.

6. Breakups are often associated with the pain you feel when someone dear to you dies and grief is normal. Allow yourself to grieve, there is no shame in that. It is rather healty and very normal and it is also part of moving on.

For an undetermined period of time, you should expect yourself to swing from feeling okay to feeling sad. You will be having good days where you won't think about your ex at all, followed by bad days where you don't feel like doing anything.

7. Be prepared to hear that they have already moved on or that they are seeing other people, even that they are talking behind your back. Some people get nasty while dealing with breakups. Of course, you may feel angry, but anger is okay, it burns the soul clean. Don't let it affect you and remember that this is not a competition, nor should you search for revenge. If you ask me, there is no better revenge than happiness. Use that energy to work on your well-being instead.

8. Another painful aspect of a break-up that you should be aware of, could be returning to known places. You can't help it but feel nostalgic and that is probably one of the times when you feel you miss them the most. What you need to do is to replace those thoughts with replaying in your mind everything that you hated about your ex. In time you'll create other memories in those places and you'll not associate them with your ex anymore.

Someday soon you will wake up and probably won't even realise how long it has been since you haven't thought about your ex. And even if they will cross your mind, you will feel nothing.

Each of us has it's own way of dealing with situations. For some it is harder to deal with things, while others are stronger and get over something much easier. Either way, it is in our nature to fight and to succed. No matter how worse the times, tomorrow will be better. And remember that you're not alone, your friends would be happy to be by your side.

Woman who loves the Berlin Wall

Yeah, this woman lusts after the Berlin Wall. She's married to the Eiffel Tower, too, which, ouch, sounds painful! lol

The No-Life Douche

I have a story for you, no fiction here. I don't know about you, but I can honestly tell you that I don't like gossiping nor listening to someone gossip. Could this rejection feeling come from my own experiences with such people? Perhaps, although even before my experiences, I have never liked it. Honestly, I don't know how in the world it happens, but these kind of people always seem to find me. Although I have to admit that, in a sadistic way, I like the feeling of being someone's center piece in their miserable lives as well as the fact that after the whole truth comes out, man do these people feel stupid to say the least. If they don't, cause anything is possible, than I do hope that one day, due to some sort of miracle, they are going to get just enough neurons to make them realize how stupid they've been til that point...
Anyways, you'd be surprised that most of these people, in my experience at least, have been guys. The last time this has happened to me was a couple of weeks ago, but each time I have such an experience, it always carries me to the first one I ever had...

I was about 17 years old and had a very closed group of friends at the time. I remember meeting this guy, I'll call him Daniel. He lived close to our neighborhood and he befriended each of us. Daniel was funny, outgoing and kind and we all liked him so he became one of us pretty quickly. Little did we know that he was in fact an intruder, a bad person and to be honest I have never really understood why these people make up stories. To cut my story short, he told these big fat lies to each of us, with the purpose of turning us against each other(?) but it was so obvious that confront is a big word to use when I had a talk with my friends about it.
One of my friends at the time was a boxer and being so fed up with Daniel, as it wasn't the first time he had done it nor the sole thing, he literally kicked Daniel's ass and told him not to come back to hang out with any of us. Surprisingly or not, Daniel never showed up again.
In times like these, I wish my boxer friend still lived a couple of blocks away.


Moving on from this classic case, I want to tell you another story that is kind of similar to the situation that happened a few weeks ago. I was out one evening to a place where they served all kinds of ice cream, it was like a Paradise. Being the first time I went there, I specifically mentioned being surprised that I didn't know about the place before, since I was a big ice cream lover. Anyways as me and my companion, were at the table waiting for our delicious orders, he asked me in a suspicious tone if I have ever been there before. I said no, again but asked why. So he tells me that this guy we both knew at the time claimed that I went there regularly and that he even went there with me on dates. At first I thought it was funny, but I was in the same time disturbed by it, because of the possibility of coming off as a liar. Maybe I exaggerated the whole thing in my mind, it happens when I feel offended, but it still isn't okay.

These people can make you become a totally different self in the ears of the listener/s and portray your life so effin' different that you wonder why the heck haven't you thought of living as fancy as that, in the happy cases, lol. You know, it is strange, but we all have to deal with these situations more than once. It is best to keep your calm and try to cut them out of your life asap. Of course, it can be fustrating, but try not to give them the satisfaction of snapping at them and showing them how upset they made you. Trust me, it will be worth it, if you don't. Because sooner or later the truth will come out and as I said before these people will feel stupid and ashamed. They will be the ones to lose, because eventually no one will stick around and they will always lose friends.
If I've been harsh, well I am not Jesus and I don't see a reason why I should try to understand these people or do anything, but ignore them.

Guys..

I am not happy at all with the last chapter of the story that I just posted before, but I posted it anyway, so you'd know what happens next, hehe. I might change it a little bit in the near future, lol. . Time is not my friend at all these days. To think about it, time was never my friend. My father once compared me to the first nations here, in Canada, who said that the worst thing they ever learnt was the time. And I agree..